this one was on my other privet blog (hawa) and I post it here for a request from a friend

hi everyone =)
Today is only a mumble here and there
some thought and thinking
I guess lake of sleep do that ^_^!
so let's start

''you never meant to be one , you excite to be one for people like us ''

I couldn't help but to notice the ringing sound in my head after I read those words
to tell you the truth
it didn't bother me a lot
I mean I'm human and have feeling + I'm a girl
so it did hit something so sensitive in me
but in the same time and that show you how weirdo I'm
it make me smile when I first read it
I take as a compliment for me
maybe I cause I have fun on 'the game' ?
or maybe cause I already know whatever happen to me
and what Allah (god) do is always the best ?
or maybe both ??

"The best thing I can do to my friend
is -simply- be his her friend
I can't help her with everything
but if she know I'm happy to loved by her
she won't ask for another reword ''

with every experiments I go thought
I stop and Pondered them
and remember all the fear and all The strength courage and confidence I gain
that moment I tell myself :
"I lived through all this nightmare
so I can pass the next one alive"
after all we don't do what we don't believe we can do
am I right ?

how is our inside look ?
I know how mine look like
and I like to see others
are everyone scary as they said ??
few days ago I keep meeting new people
and I like having friends and see how people live their life
I reach a point that I thought that some people are the oddest
then fact keep hitting me that everyone live here
some of you told me it's might be a big lie
and even our feeling we thought we have is .. a lie
but if we think about it again
everyone hide something
the simple thing when you smile even when you want to cry and scream inside

a good friend told me once :

"I smile because even if it is sad, it is better than not doing so at allI have someone that will always make me smile, and it will always be that way. So I just think of them when I gets to be too hard."

First thing I thought was WOW this person is SO LIKE ME * big hug *
and I like it ..
I like knowing people like me or even different
it's not a 'big ego' it just I like who act like me more
and in the same time can't help but worried
I'm not easy person and so they are
for now all what I'll think about is how to enjoy myself , be good friend , help people as much as I can and wounder a lot of questions YOU plant in my head

the meaning is the white Lion
and I guess I kind figured how to enjoy the 'SUN'
and to tell the truth
you are my dear friends are the most adorable thing in the world
I feel like I want to steal you and hide you in my candy box
but then I have to take the other witch I don't mind
but the only problem here
someone don't want to share <.<
get the hint yet darling ;)

I guess this is for today
the rest will soon

off to do Rainbow cupcake for my niece and nephew =)
hope your day will be full of as colorful as the RAINBOW

to someone that know who this 'person' is :I know your glaring at me but heeey I do like colors <.<